High School Life.

Breaking up with your bestfriend.

I feel like I lost a part of me.

My heart is broken into a million little pieces.

But you could care less. It’s true that the people you love most will fuck you over the worst, or maybe its just that it hurts worse.

Losing our friendship has sent me into a mild depression as my therapist calls it, I feel like i have no reason to live without you. All I do is sleep, and cry, and break shit. 

“I don’t know who I am without you, all I know is that I should” Thats like my favorite line now because it’s so relevant to my life. 

I have to delete you from my facebook now, and my twitter and take all your pictures off my walls, because I can’t stand to look at you, or think about you without crying. 

I find myself wanting to hurt you, because you hurt me so much, it’s turning me into someone I don’t like.

So the end of an era I guess, because I said not to come back, but in reality, I only said that because I know you wont and at least this way I’ll feel like it was my idea. I’ll miss you everyday, and my heart will never heal where you broke it. I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you and I hope your new friends give you what you’re looking for.

Goodbye bestfriend

And remember, no one will ever love you like I do, no one will ever be willing to do the stuff I was willing to do, no one will ever be you to me. I Won’t ever find another you. I love you. Forever and always

You know, sometimes you just need to take the edge off.

Take a line, or light up.

When life gets too over whelming and you can’t find an exit, and all you want is to just escape, sometimes you find what you need and sometimes you don’t.

Ryan gave me just what I needed.

Life is so beautiful, and I had a really bad week and I was very depressing, but now, now I am looking on the bright side of things now, because life is too short to be sad over silly things. 
Breath.

Keep calm and carry on kids.